with so many things revolving and straying around me, its kindda sad.
let me put things through CLEARLY.
to my 'somehow' good friend, i know its kindda hard on you that you have already come up with something for everyone.
you know, sometimes people just feel obliged over something which is planned and just can't take the courage to turn it down.
yes, we might be over- reacting but it did it cause we treat everyone in the clique the same amongst one another.
the ties we have forged, the love which sparkled and the bonds which strengthened.
they're just priceless, unbreakable and undeniable.
to have come thus far, its alrdy hard for us now to accept something new for we have already gotten things so settled.
sometimes, when things don't go our way, we stand up for ourselves, knowing the consequences behind every act(s) which is/are done.
now that things have been put so clearly in front of us, i'm already wordless.
and if things aren't the way it is as you put it, its just BAD and just STUPID to have arrowed a single person.

next, i wanna address another issue regarding what i've read over at some BULLSHIT diary.
firstly, WHY are the others getting so involved over a classmate whom they don't seem to care in class for 2years (or maybe 4years)?
and now, WHY the hell are they over-showering care and concern?
i'm sorry for you to have said that we are not solving the problem.
now that the things are almost solved, i have to see what you people have to say.
its not that we are being selfish, but on our side, we have to see that things really go well for her.
its neither surprising nor sad to see such messages posted up.
in any case, i think that we just doesn't click, be it character or whatever.
i simply don't give a damn.
should you wanna say anything against someone, think about how he/she thinks about you.
i'm seriously not someone who walks home from esplanade, sit at CJ for 3hours.
and I'M NOT SOMEONE WHO BRAINWASHES OTHERS SO AS TO WITNESS FRIENDSHIP GOING ROCK BOTTOM.
and i'm not someone who just tries to get everybody on his side, unlike someone.

finally, to all.
now that things have emerged thus far, i can only ponder and reflect over the acts that what others have shown so that i do not and never become like them.
its unlike the past now - everyone CHANGED but in our perspectives - from bad to worst.
i can say that i'm the only one who have the cheek to get these messages through to everyone.
however, that doesn't make me the devil of all.
i speak up for my friends and if your ears can't accept it, i have no choice.
and if anybody mistaken me for my courage to speak up, i have TOTALLY nothing to say.
i'm not trying to proof that i can or could do a better job, i'm just getting my concerns through and if you can't accept that, would you want me to see my friend suffer? or would you want me to be a wuss and keep my mouth shut over it?
yes, i did it all.
i did it all, for my friends.